November 3, 2009

dari hati tak turun-turun ke keyboard

I find my writings / posts lately have been so ... ermm unsatisfying and dull. I always want my posts to be something that comes from my heart, and worth sharing. But lately, I don't really get the right time to have the feel of blogging. I have plenty of time, but my time management is poor.

And I really need new face for this blog.

Wahai hati, sampaikanlah dengan indah dan bijak!

October 31, 2009

Koya jap..

Some of Terengganu words that I am still fascinated by how they were created in the first place:

Koya pa ceroh = khayal sampai cerah (pagi) = berangan sampai tak sedar masa
*wei aku tanye dari takdi dok jawab bakpe, koya pa ceroh mu ning!

Dok ghok cetong = dok larat = tak larat
*aku dok ghok cetong doh ni, mitok tolong ngan oghang lain la pulok.

Dok tahu kale = dok tahu berkala = tak tahu apa2
*mu doksoh tanye die tu, dia memang dok tahu kale.

Tene (te untuk teh, ne untuk nenek) = petola

Takmboh = tak nak

Congek = senget / terangkat
*mat ghempit ni memang suke naek motor congek2, bahaye sunggoh la..

Bekok cobong = bengkak cobong = bengkak besar (biasanya untuk mata)
*wi la mainan ke adik tu pulok, bengok cobong doh mate die duk nangis daghi takdi.

Daghak ulu = darat hulu = orang yang darat la, mcm mane nk cakap ni?? Macam orang yang jakun sangat kot..
*KFC pong dok penoh pegi? Daghak ulu sungguh la..

Senyak tuppah = senyap tumpas = senyap sangat / terus senyap
*aku dok penoh cakak lagi ngan die tu, senyak tuppah dekpong, nok tego malah (malas).

*seriously it is harder to type loghat Terengganu, than to speak..because I think this accent is more to simplify the words to be spoken, clear examples are:

Wi = beri
Dok = dok
Dakyoh = tak payah
Doksoh = tak usah
Samah = 50 sen
Sutir = sebutir
Ya = ringgit (5 ya = 5 ringgit)
Ho = ya = ye / iyer (ho untuk hong kong, bukan jai ho)

Doh2 la tu..banyok sangak contoh kalau nok wi…

Pardon my language

My tongue is really twisted now, to speak normal Malay (language), Terengganu Malay and proper British English. Since I came back to UK, obviously I rarely speak English to anyone here because there is no demand for that. Except when writing (typing) like what I’m doing now. And also for the need to speak proper Malay – baku. I am enjoying speaking Terengganu accent now, the accent that I will not utter when I’m in UK coz I’m not used to using Terengganu accent when I’m not in Terengganu, even meeting the Terengganu people over there.

Because I was so used to speak ‘baku’, at first when I came back, my language was all mixed-up; baku + loghat Terengganu. Almost similar to tongue twister. And now, I realise that it is even harder to utter English that I was so used to sometime ago.. and I think my English overall is deteriorating and really need polishing..

One useful tip to share here, if you really want to improve your English in a non-english environment, all you really need is CONFIDENCE. Lacking of confidence will result in less use of English, improper use of some English words and poor quality of spoken English. Like me, the way I’m using my English now is more towards Manglish and I really should be cautious………

September 28, 2009

What I’ll be missing: the last part

The truth is, I don’t really feel like missing UK at the moment. Maybe after some years? Currently I’m enjoying my time in Msia, so why should I miss something else?One week before I got back, my heart was already in Msia, I was only physically in UK, thus parting from people over there didn’t really sadden me. It has been almost a month since I got back, and had a blast eid for the whole last week. Celebrating eid that had lost its feel since last 3 years..and last week it had been awakened again and I’m so grateful.

Anyway, I know I would still miss some other things:

*wonderful Msian families in Bradford and their lovely kids, especially the ones that blend well with me

*catching a train or bus to get somewhere easily, no matter how near or far. I really miss and need this excellent public transport system. It makes anyone can go anywhere, but in Msia, without a car, you just can go nowhere. Public transport? No comment. Only LRT, Putra, KTM Komuter and ERL would make me think less about safety and convenience.

*carrying my handbag anywhere without any worries. But in Msia, I can only feel secure if I use a sling bag. So when can I use my handbag? I dunno. Only when I think it is safe for me to walk around with it, without the chance of it being snatched by any scumbag and get myself injured afterwards, or even die, just like any other victims (naudzubillah).

*fast speed internet!!! Why is my streamyx is sooo lousy?? Currently it is so unstable that it disconnects itself anytime it likes it (and frustrates me). This is truly berukband. Even in CC.


Maybe I shouldn’t miss UK that much. Plus, I’m enjoying my life in Msia now, with its pros and cons. I’ve made my decision to be here and my future is also here. Here in my home.

September 4, 2009

What I'll be missing: III

A bit bout my experience in the plane, as soon as it touched down (KLIA), and the passengers were ready to get their luggage in the storage cabin above head to get out, well I witnessed something that made me ponder.

There was this one young lady, sitting in front of me, and like others, she wanted to take out her bag from the cabin. Her bag seemed to be big n heavy, but she managed to pull it out by herself. And the young malay man, who was beside her, juz watched her, din't even lend a hand to help her. So not gentleman. Tho he juz got back from UK as well, but din't he learn anything bout being gentleman?? Duhh.. And when it was my turn to pull my things from the cabin, he also juz stood and watched. Hampeh tol..

I dunno why I felt 'hampa', maybe because all this while I had been pampered by those white guys that ALWAYS helped me to take my things from upper cabin; most of the time, they took it out without me asking for help, coz they know someone must want to get them anyway..

Back to the plane story, as people were queuing to walk out of the plane, I was actually taking some time, coz I din't wana stuck in the long Q. But as soon as I stand up, the white guy who was near the Q stopped walking and allowed me to get in the line before him. I smiled and thanked him, his action juz healed my frustation over that malay guy.

It's not that I'm judging malaysian guys, but this one thing I will miss it (since it is not always available back home) : the gentleman-ness of the men. Generally, most men in UK are always being gentlemen to ladies. I dunno if they really prefer 'ladies first' concept, but sharing my experience, if they really want ladies to go first, as in queuing to get in the bus or getting inside a room or something, if they want you ladies to go first, my advice is JUST GO. Coz you won't win that situation even tho you don't mind if they go first.

And this also applies to most Malaysian guys in UK. So, if you meet with any of them, but they happen to be not-so-gentlemen, then you are so unlucky - that species is very rare. At my very early times, it was so awkward to me and I kept wondering why they have to treat us ladies that way. But later on I realised that they are just practising manners with ladies, and I really appreciate them. No loss on their side, but I think they are more respectable that way.

This is not including the part where they (most guys) always hold the door for me to get through when I was behind them, sometimes they let me walk through first before them. Terharu. Appreciated. (coz I normally a bit lazy to hold the door longer, only juz for a while).

What are other examples? Too many to say I guess, but I really like it. I like it when men do some goodness to you, without expecting anything in return. Keikhlasan. Keikhlasan that I feel quite hard to get in Msia, when most men do some goodness to you / help you but expecting something in return. Buat baik yang ada makna. Takde makna mmg tak sah. Mesti ada macam, "terima kasih je ke?", "kene blanje nih", or nk berkenalan la pulak kan.. plg koman pon mesti dh start perasan or pandang pelik..huh..

Mcm mamat spain yg gua cerita dlm post pasal Spain tu, beriya2 die nk tlg gua, tp takde pon nk lebih2 mcm mitak no tepon ke ape. Lepas dah tolong, abes kt situ je la kan. Kan best. Nmpk sgt ikhlas. Mcm mase turun tangga kt stesen underground, bile tgk angkat beg berat nak mampos turun tangga, ade je org nk tolong - well biasanya laki la kan.

I guess I must be expecting the guys here will pamper me as well - and I'll end up frustated?? Manjakah aku..or juz hoping them to be more gentlemen? Hee..I prefer the 2nd one...

August 17, 2009



Mimpi makan nasik lauk gulai daging, siap ngan ubi kentang. Yang mama masak. Dengan rambut yang serabai tak ikat, sampai nak makan2 rambut sekali.

Dua malam lepas.

Mimpi naik roller-coaster. Dan mmg boleh rase adrenaline rush.

Malam-malam yang dulu.

Mimpi makan keropok lekor.
Makan kuah bistik.
Mi goreng.

Oh apekah semua ini??

August 14, 2009


Dalam setiap nafasku, kuteringatkan dirimu
Dalam setiap sepiku, kuterdengar bicaramu
Dalam setiap khayalku, kuterbayang kelibatmu

Dalam setiap geriku, kuterasa pandanganmu
Dalam setiap dukaku, kuterima doamu
Dalam setiap juangku, kutahu sokongmu

Dan aku ingin selalu di sampingmu
Walau terkadang kita terpisah
Namun denganmu adalah indah

Dan saat itu pasti datang
Untuk mempertemukan kita

Dan seperti lazimnya
Riak kegembiraanku tidak terserlah semuanya
Begitu juga denganmu
Namun kita tahu
Kasih yang kita rasa

Mama, aku rindu..

August 12, 2009

Suuuratkhabar mana~~

Up till today, I don't know how long I've been refraining myself from reading Utusan Malaysia online - my ex-favourite newspaper. It was my favourite since that is the only Malay newspaper that my dad used to buy, and I'm so not used to other Malay newspaper. Despite of being pro-government newspaper with a lot of politics news, I still read it - until I felt enough of being fooled, or like my buddy used to say - keintelektualan ku diperkotak-katikkan.

It happened when we came across this article in Utusan, entitled

6 kesalahan besar dilakukan semasa berpacaran.

After reading it along with our laughters (the article was funny and shallow), my friend and I couldn't stop making fun of it.

"2. Keluar bersama teman-teman dengan harapan bertemu lelaki pujaan.

Apabila bersama teman-teman khususnya wanita, anda sebenarnya tidak akan didekati oleh lelaki. Sebabnya, lelaki bujang sebenarnya amat penakut. Ada teori menyatakan bahawa wanita yang keluar secara berkumpulan tidak akan menarik perhatian kaum lelaki.

Lelaki yang mempunyai kualiti tidak akan menghampiri kumpulan wanita tersebut dan kemudian mengajak anda keluar dengannya di hadapan teman-teman anda. Lelaki seperti itu tidak akan berani melakukannya. Jadi idea paling baik, keluarlah bersendirian.

Pilihlah meja terbaik untuk menikmati makanan atau minuman sambil membaca buku kegemaran anda. Berpura-pura anda sedang sibuk. Keadaan itu sebenarnya membuatkan anda lebih mudah didekati apatah lagi anda sedang bersendirian."

"6. Lupa menjaga tingkah laku dan adab sopan.

Kunci utama pada satu temu janji yang berjaya adalah senyuman. Tawan hatinya dengan pandangan mata. Biarkan dia 'memimpin' pentas pertemuan itu dan anda hanya menyuntik perkara-perkara kecil yang dapat membantu menghangatkan suasana.

Contohnya, andai si dia memesan pencuci kulit dan anda berkongsi menikmatinya, katanya: "Inilah kek coklat paling enak dan saya gembira awak memilihnya."

APEKAH?? Dah la artikel ni takde nama penulis. Nak cek sumber mana pon tak tahu, sebab rasenye ni sah2 cilok dari artikel asing (ada ke pompuan2 kt msia amalkan keluar sorg2 supaya ditekel??). Bace la sniri, kalau nak rase jugak mcm mana rasenye diperbodohkan oleh suratkhabar arus perdana ni.

Actually I didn't stop there. I kept reading it still coz I couldn't keep myself still without knowing any news in Malaysia. And then until 1 day, there was a news reporting a woman who had been robbed for her handbag that she hanged on the side mirror, while she was on her motorbike, and that she fell and caused serious injury to her head and she died in hospital.

And when I read inside, it was said that the police was still investigating the case; it could be that it wasn't a robbery case, instead it could be an accident since she was found lying on a nearby hump, and there was no witness.

So, why do you have to report it as A ROBBERY CASE on the front page when inside, you mentioned that the police WAS STILL INVESTIGATING the case?? Or was it me juz being silly?

And I had enough of being fooled by this newspaper. Dahla hari2 disajikan dengan berita2 politik yang tak pernah2 habes. Baik bagi nama Utusan politik je.

Marilah. Marilah berhenti membaca Utusan. Peliharalah keintelektualan kita.

*dah tu, nak bace suratkhabar mana? Malaysiakini pon pnoh dengan berita politik, malaysianinsider liputan x meluas..huhu

August 8, 2009


As of today, I dunno how many times I've been saying coollllll.....
But today I got so many things to 'cool' about.....
I've been seeing a lot of cool things today as the result of googling here and there....
And they were so coollllll.......

Ohh the date for today is cool as well, it's 07/08/ innit?

And I'm eager to be amazed by another cool stuffs.....
It makes me feel coollll.....

(cool x aku merepek camni? :p)

*and seeing Yuna wearing very tight pants juz now was not really cool...

August 5, 2009

What I'll be missing: II

I was browsing through my old photos, and found some photos of me with the winter clothes..
*Winter coats

Ohh..i think I'll be missing wearing them. Even though sometimes they were like a weight to carry on the body during cold/freezing times, but back in my humid and hot homecountry, I won't be using them anymore.

Amsterdam, April 2008

Unless..I wanna catchup with the latest trend, such as wearing maffler despite the hot weather..(what?) Yeah recently I think they are really in the fashion. But I don't think I can do that. I can't even put on double layer of clothes everytime I go back home. I'll sweat and I don't like that. And I always wonder why some Malaysians can do that..maffler around the neck, gloves some - I really wanna walk in my boots back in Malaysia, but I'm worried my feet will be flooding with sweat. And as for winter coats, they ARE really in trend right now (?) since a lot of gorgeous coats are sold by most women's stores..and I wonder again..

No offense eh..if u not travelling to any winter countries, when are you gonna experience wearing them? haha wutever..It's good if u can accommodate to hot weather even by wearing layers..

Ohh can't wait to go back and put on my baju kurung and kebaya..
-since it's always windy here, I don't feel practical wearing them regularly.

August 2, 2009

No pain no gain in Spain

I juz got back from Spain yesterday, after being a tourist guide to my cousin's family. Well, the truth was, I was being a tourist guide to a place I had never been before! Haha..and what made it more interesting, this time I was travelling sehelai sepinggang. Ade la duit poket sikit (tu pon duit hutang) and tket flight n hotel pon hutang jugak..mamma mia...

Nothing much to say here about the trip; I'll update later. Juz to share some sweet n sour experience while we were in Malaga, before departing to Granada. While we were waiting for the bus to Granada at the Estacion de Autobuses de Malaga (Malaga Bus Station), I was charging my camera battery in the toilet. At the beginning, I was waiting in the toilet. But then, I had to get my flip flop from them to perform ablution. I felt so lazy to unplug the charger and bring it outside and then get into the toilet again. Since I was thinking, if there were anyone (too stupid and mean) to steal it, it could be of not much use since it was just a battery, not even a camera.

Then I left it there, when nobody was in the toilet, and when I got to them (around 40m from toilet), they were asking me for qiblah direction. I was feeling worried since this was gonna buy me some time leaving the charger alone, but then I tried to use the compass quickly to find the qiblah. Then I got back to toilet quickly (after 2-3 minutes I guess) and tadaa..there was nothing on the plug!! My battery + charger + europe adaptor = all GONE!

Panjangnye citer..dipendekkan citer, camtu la..i think someone had just stolen it, in a nick of time..and he/she (should be she since it was a ladies toilet) could be planning on selling those items in black market (wutever!). Nothing much I could do. Once it's gone, it's gone.

I really couldn't say anything, I wasn't careless since I left them with my willingness and confidence. But, it happened. And all I could do was redha je la..I had no idea why I was so calm, but could be due to so many things I had to be patient of before, till I got no more upset feelings to spare for this sour experience.

Since that moment, my camera had stopped snapping photos :(

The sweet thing about it was that, there was this one fine Spanish guy that was really keen on helping me and felt really sorry for it (hehe). Well, he was helping me to translate my case to the security guard (since most Spanish don't speak English). But the guard couldn't help that much since no one had reported any missing item to him. And coincidentally, we were heading to Granada in the same bus.

I took some time to have a conversation with him at the Estacion de Autobuses De Granada. Found out that he was on his way to his campus somewhere 3 hours away from Granada. That explained why he could speak English - he's in univ/college doing art. Well his name was pronounced as Ghondia (I'm sure this spelling is wrong) and back to the missing item, he did ask at the information counter as well but no hope. At least, it did heal a bit to meet some decent bloke in Spain right? ;) He even suddenly popped out to offer help when we were getting into taxi (after we already left each other) but I said I already had the hotel's address.. =)
So that was when I last talked to him. Mucho gusto encantando!

On our last day in Spain, we headed back to Malaga bus station from Cordoba. Once again, I did try my chance looking for my missing items, but that left me in vain. It was like 4 days ago that I lost them and no chance of recovering them now.

My camera had not been functioning (without a battery) since then.

Now I'm back in UK, I got my spare battery, but still I need to look for the charger. All the best for me yea!

This was the last photo taken from my camera, before the battery went dead (and lost). This up on the hill scene was taken from Castillo de Gilbrafaro, Malaga.

July 26, 2009

60 things most girls dont know

Some things to share, copied this from somewhere else, probably confessed by some guy(s?). Since they seem to be really practical (in a way), I pasted them here..

1.Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6're a HOE)

2."Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3.Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4.Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5.Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6.Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7.Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8.A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9.Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10.Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11.Guys get jealous easily.

12.Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13.Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14.Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15.Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16.Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17.Guys are very open about themselves.

18.It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19.Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20.If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21.A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22.Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23.Guys will brag about anything.

24.Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25.No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

26.Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

27.Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

28.Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

29.Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then they're all confused.

30.Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

31.Try to be as straightforward as possible.

32.If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

33.If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

34.When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

35.Guys don't really have final decisions.

36.If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

37.If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

38.When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

39.When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

40.Guys like femininity not feebleness.

41.Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

42.A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

43.Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

44.Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

45.Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

46.Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

47.If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

48.Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49.A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50.No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51.Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

52.We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53.Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

54.Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

55.When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

56.Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

57.Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

58.Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

59.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

60.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
(I honestly believe no.60 is not practical)

What I'll be missing: I

Things change. I've changed to a more mature and tougher person. Well, life gets tougher, so do I eh? And now, it is the time for big changes in my life. My journey in UK will be terminated not long from now, after I first landed here in September 2006. So, many things will end here for me.. And these ends mean big changes for me; I will no longer have them. And I know I will miss them. And as usual, we have to adapt to changes. And I'm recording them here so that I won't forget them in my busy future.

*First thing I want to record here, is what I am currently losing. I am currently losing my dear friends in UK - my fightingmates (teman seperjuangan). I'm losing them to Malaysia, they are leaving UK as their business here have finished, well some of them already in Msia. Well, even though I can still contact them, it feels so different now since they are not here in UK. In a way, I feel so alone here, since I'm still taking my time to go back home. The change is that, they are no longer here. I feel like I'm without my comrades to finish my last battle here.

-No more hanging out in UK with my girls
-No more long calls on the phone using our free minutes
-No more long chat in ym, buzzing, gossiping, pasting links and sharing photos

Holland, Spring 2008

I guess I'm just making it sound worst. The fact is, I still have other friends here, and Malaysian families that are so caring about me.

July 21, 2009


Dia pun rase apa yang aku rasa...
Dia pun fikir apa yang aku dah fikir...


July 14, 2009

Need and desire

I hate wanting so much.
I hate wanting so much that I can't even get what I really want.
Whenever I can't get what I really want, I end up frustrated.
Frustrated all by myself.

I've tried to not wanting so much.
But I can't help, of having so much desire for myself,
and wanting so much to fulfill my need.

Until, I reach to a point, where I feel like I should stop from asking so many things in my life.
But it leaves me with worries of being a human without hope, since I'm not wanting anything.

It's 1:04 am now, and I can't stop being sad thinking about this since my attempt trying to get in bed. I'm thinking too much, but I can't help it.

Maybe I'm asking too much, that I forget, that I've been given with so many gifts that I forget to be thankful. I've been so blessed that I don't realise that I don't have much needs anymore, and should not be desiring this and that.

July 5, 2009

Ada apa dengan nombor?

Lamanye aku x blog..hmmm


04. Nombor yang aku letak kat email aku. Aku ni mmg tak minat ngan nombor2 ni sbenanye. Tapi, nombor 04 selalu menghantui aku kt digital number display yg aku tgk; jam kt mobile phone aku (ni plg byk), pastu mane2 display yg ade tulis nombor, mcm pukul 3:04, 12:04, etc.. Disebabkan rase saspen dihantui nombor2 yang same ni, maka aku pon letak la nombor ni kat email yg aku pakai..maka lepas tu kurang la sket aku ternampak nombor 04 ni kt mane2..yela sbb dah biasa kan tgk kt email sniri.

No.4 ni xde mende pon utk aku, except that aku ni anak ke-4. Tu je. So aku ade favour jgk nombor ni kadang2, atas sbb tu je..

Cume, lately, ade satu lagi nombor yang telah menghantui aku.. Maka aku pon tak senang duduk jugak la..Yang ni ade gabungan 3 nombor, xxx. Yang ni over sket, sbb nombor 04 tu slalunye aku nampak kt jam digital je, tapi xxx ni aku nampak kt mane2. Creepy. Sampaikan nombor tu jadi terbalik pon aku ade ternampak jugak..Arghhh..yang aku ingat, aku penah nampak xxx ni kat image size mase aku blogging, pastu no. servis ape tah ari tu, pastu ari tu aku bangun nampak nombor ni kat jam tepon aku, n ape tah lagi..Arghhh...yang pasti, aku mmg dari awal2 lagi nampak nombor ni kt ym aku.. sbb ade kt ID sorang mamat ni, n aku mmg slalu gak chatting ngan die (sbb tu nombor ni dirahsiakan..). It's juz that, why now? Ada makna ke??

Tentang seseorang ni, nombor xxx die tu mmg ade nombor 4 jugak. Suratan atau kebetulan, ntah ler. Apa yang dapat aku relate, kitorang dah almost 4 tahun x jumpa each other, sbb jauh. Ada ym je yg boleh kontek. So far, aku anggap die as teman tapi mesra - TTM. Takde la slalu chatting pon, tapi slalu la tegur2 ble ade mase. Kadang2 aku ingat dia x kesah pon kt aku, but sometimes he shows that he cares. But aku rase die mmg caring ngan kengkawan die pon. Cume, mungkin die kurang caring pasal die sniri. Tu part yang aku kureng sket.

What I mean is, die mmg pandai nasihat aku n kengkawan yg len2. Tp ade la mende2 pasal die yg aku rase die kene ubah in caring for himself, for a better him. Mungkin sbb die rase life die skang dah ok, so why bother anything else. Despite of that, 1 thing yang aku sangat aware, aku x pnah rase sakit ati ngan die (so far la). Klu mcm ada tersalah, die mmg dh sorry awal2 (padahal xde mende pon). Aku takkan lupa ni. Sbb die ni tah ape2 jgak orangnye. Otai la jugak. Bila fikir balik, laki2 lain yang berlagak macam bagus, macam baik, ade je yang sakitkan hati orang lain, or don't even bother about others.

Skarang, it looks like it's gonna end somewhere. I don't know where, but since aku akan balik msia x lame lg, n kurang dah mase dpt ym, maka kurang atau x dpt langsung dah la kot nk chatting ngan si dia ni. Plus, lately die mcm dh pelik sket ngan aku. Like, panggil aku ngan nama, pastu chatting ngan aku pasal mende2 yg agak personal (dulu aku yg slalu tanye sbb nk korek samthing ngan die), n, die pnah ckap pasal things yg bunyi lain macam. Xde mende pon, cume as TTM, ptt tak timbul mende tu. Klu gurau2 tu mmg ade la. I like it we are being that way. Nothing personal. Sbb susah kan laki ngan pompuan klu konon2 nk jadi membe rapat je.

Tapi takpelah. Sebelum aku mtak lebih2 dari dia, and die x dpt bagi, aku rase aku nak mengundur diri. Everything has an end kan.. But there are things I won't forget about him:
- die pnah ckap aku pompuan plg tabah die pnah jumpe (dunno if he really meant that)
- die tak pnah bwat aku sakit hati or bengang
- die slalu bwat aku terhibur, tersenyum sendiri, and made me felt OK when things not OK for me
- die x pnah chat tergantung, if he wants to leave, he leaves with manner..
- die slalu ckp pasal mende2 yg boleh motivate aku
- aku x jadikan die tempat mengadu, tp die selalu buat aku bercerita

I better leave it there, before I get more emotional. Post aku dulu - Dari hati turun ke gitar - lagu tu mmg aku tujukan kt die pon (wpon die mmg x tahu). Hopefully lepas ni nombor keramat die tu (xxx) takkan menghantui aku lg, since aku dh express kt sini..walaupun tak visible.

*terasa macam Opie yg bercerita dlm blog die (Dunia Baru season 1)

p/s: I just realised this post is dated as 4 July.. another number 4..huhuuuu. sebbaik bukan nombor xxx tu

June 9, 2009

blog oh blog

Lately aku rase sgt malas untuk memblog..apatah lagi untuk update blog.. Ini bagaikan suatu petanda bahawa aku akan berhenti memblog tidak lama je sbenanye blogging ni..tapi tah la..

mungkin sbb lately aku jarang dapat ilham tentang mende2 yg best untuk ditulis (ditaip). tp kadang2 ade je ilham, tp tak tertaip pulak. atau mungkin aku dah mula rasa bosan. tp boleh pulak aku buat post kali ni kan? mungkin juga aku dah mula merasa malas untuk blog, dan nk concentrate kt aktiviti2 lain pulak yg tangan aku boleh wat selain menaip kt keyboard ni.. seperti memetik gitar, melukis potret, membaca buku2 yg menarik, memasak masakan2 baru, dan banyak lagi la..

aku sbenanye nak sgt bela binatang2 yg comel seperti kuceng, hamster ke, guinea pig ke..mereka sgt comel keadaan skang x mengizinkan la..nnt la aku blk msia bleh concentrate kt hobi tu..aku teringin sgt tgk hamster aku berlari2 dlm bebola pusing2 tu..baru2 ni aku tgk hamster2 kt kdai haiwan yg baru bgn tdo..mamai2..garu2 badan..mate pon xleh bukak..alalala comeyynye..

pastu aku plak x pnah blog dan ckp merepek2 camni..hmm lantakla..but one thing for sure, things change. nothing stays the same. be it small or big change, it will happen. it is happening to me, n people around me.. people that can feel the wave of change will understand what I mean. So, CHASE for what u want. DON'T WAIT until things change, that's gona be TOO LATE..


May 26, 2009

Dari hati turun ke gitar

Kukatakan dengan indah
dengan terluka
hatiku hampa
sepertinya luka

kau beri rasa yang berbeda
mungkin kusalah
yang kurasa cinta

tetapi hatiku
selalu meninggikanmu
terlalu meninggikanmu
selalu meninggikanmu

kau hancurkan hatiku
hancurkan lagi
kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

kau terangi jiwaku
kau redupkan lagi
kau hancurkan hatiku tuk melihatmu

membuatku terjatuh dan terjatuh lagi
membuatku merasakan yang tak terjadi
semua yang terbaik dan terlewati
semua yang terhenti tanpa kuakhiri


May 19, 2009

Nasib superheroes

Van Helsing

Semenye kematian awek. Sedey..sedey.. last2 membujang jer~

Clark Kent - Superman
Bruce Wayne - Batman
Tony Stark - Iron Man

Yang ni bertukar2 awek je keje. Mentang2 ade rupe n physique. Duhh..

There's always a woman (/women..hmm..) behind a successful man, kan.
They juz can't be successful without the females. haha no offense..jk

Sendiri jadi hero lebih baek, kan? ;)

Hero (Instrumental) - Mariah Carey

Theres a hero
If you look inside your heart
You dont have to be afraid
Of what you are
Theres an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Its a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Oh oooh
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But dont let anyone
Tear them away, hey yeah
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
Youll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And youll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

That a hero lies in you
That a hero lies in

May 15, 2009

It's time to fix my life

Alhamdulillah...segala syukur pada Tuhanku..yang telah memberikan aku kesenangan dalam segala kesusahan..

Now I'm breathing again, breathing as a normal human being. Normal as in less stress, less burden, more happiness :)

My final year has been a really tough time.Can't believe it I survived.

Nov 08-Feb 09: Mental damage
I was diagnosed with depression. This mental illness was a natural process in my head. I wasn't depressed because of my grandad dying or someone has been stalking me for years, but it juz happened. Medical students should understand this better. I've been taking anti-depressant pills for months (not acai pills..hehe - omg acai has juz buzzed me!! grrr) and now I've totally recovered.

Feb 09 - April 09: Heart damage
I was emotionally challenged. I had to deal with various personal and financial problems. Alhamdulillah, I managed to mend my heart, with the help of people around me. Thanks, may God rewards you all.

April 09 - May 09: Brain damage
Critical time for dissertation and exams!!! They have made my life mixed-up with everything; my brain transformed into scramble eggs, my hands into super-typing robotic arms and my eyes into fish eyes (have u ever seen fish' eyes when they sleep??). And yes, it has made my life a lot funnier, hee ^^ Anyone that has read my notes in FB should understand this, hopefully I've cheered u up guys. Don't worry, no more notes on brain damage coz my dizzytation is a history!

Now, I'M DONE with all of these damages. It's time to fix my life. Time to clean the mess all around me. Time to catch up with everything I've left before. I realise all this is just a small test for me, from my Creator. I hope I pass with flying colours! This test has made me realise a lot of things; who are my friends and who are not worth to be called friends, I start to see what are the 'nikmat' that God has given me but I've been taking them for granted, and how powerful actually Al-Fatihah can be, to us Muslims.

I dunno which song I should choose to dedicate 2 u all, but nevermind. What is more important, if u all were sincere to me, God knows that, and the angels have been reporting them down in your record book.

Deep down in your heart

Something that I juz learned lately..

If u don't do something wrong, and u being blamed for it,


If u do something wrong, and you're not forgiven, no matter how much you've apologised


U can't stop feeling guilty about it (if you really are sincere)

in the end

the person involved in that matter, will look for you.

And then

You will realise, you were right

For enduring the blame

For seeking forgiveness that was not forgiven earlier.


and God knows that.

May 12, 2009


Saya nak balik Mesia.

Saya nak balik nak jadi otai

Saya nak balik nak jadi otai

p/s: Subhanallah.. I just found a striking finding today.. i wanna share this with anyone who can get access to this:

surprising discovery, well this is all Sunnatullah :p

anyone who can't, can PM me. hehe...

but honestly, it's about Malaysians; Malays, Chineses, Indians
specifically men, but obviously women are affected as well.
sorry aa skang xleh citer lg sbb ade satuuuu je lagi paper nak kene pulun so kene focus dulu (padahal focus dh distracted sbb this finding + Bobo ku cedera)

hmm i guess extremists of UMNO / MIC / MCA
may want to discover this first before it leaks to the Malaysian citizens.. hahahaa *evil laugh*

May 7, 2009

Summer 2009

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?

Thou art more lovely and more temperate:

Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,

And summer's lease hath all too short a date:

Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,

And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;

And every fair from fair sometime declines,

By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;

But thy eternal summer shall not fade

Nor lose possess
ion of that fair thou owest;

Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,

When in eternal lines to time thou growest:

So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,

So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.


Keukenhof, Netherlands 2008


April 26, 2009

Ada apa dengan 20A?

Perlu ke adik Nor Madihah tu diangkat dan dijulang kerana dia berjaya mendapat 20A dalam SPM? Sama jugak macam yang lain2, Nor Amalina and the rests yang dapat banyak sangat A sampai kene pakai jari kaki nak kira.

Macam mana dengan orang2 lain yang dapat A kira pakai 1 tangan pun dah cukup, tak pun ada beberapa A je, atau yang takde A langsung? Tak cemerlangkah mereka? Tak mencapai matlamat SPM kah mereka?

Secara peribadi, saya berpendapat trend berlumba2 kumpul A banyak2 di Malaysia sebagai makin membimbangkan. Sebab orang dapat banyak A dipandang mulia, dapat biasiswa dan dijamin hidup senang. Orang yang dapat sikit A, atau tak dapat A langsung, dipandang serong atau tak dipandang langsung, siapa nak taja kalau nak lanjutkan pelajaran dan, ada masa depan yang cerahkah??


Kejayaan di bangku sekolah bukan diukur pada keputusan peperiksaan mereka. Mana2 orang yang dahulunya hanya dapat keputusan sekadar memuaskan, atau dikategorikan tidak cemerlang, pasti bersetuju dengan saya. Kerana, selepas sekolah, mereka telah hidup di bumi yang nyata, dan dunia sebenarnya tidak sesempit itu. Tuhan itu Maha Adil, dan tak pernah dalam Al-Quran kata yang hamba2Nya mesti berlumba2 menjadi genius. Yang pasti, banyak diulang2, "Apakah kamu tidak berfikir? - Afala ya'kiluun".

Tak tahulah kalau sebenarnya ada kan, saya dulu pun, bukan banyak sangat A dapat. Pakai jari 2 belah tangan pun dah cukup nak kira. Tapi saya percaya, kawan2 seangkatan saya dulu yang dapat A kurang daripada saya, dah bawa hala tuju masing2 dalam kehidupan mereka, apa yang terbaik untuk mereka, bukan semata-mata untuk memenuhi pandangan guru2, sekolah dan masyarakat. Tapi, memanfaatkan anugerah yang telah Tuhan kurniakan untuk mereka, dan mencari rezeki dengan apa yang mereka ada pada diri mereka.

No offense la kan, untuk orang2 yang dapat A berlambak2 tu. Tapi kalau nak bandingkan korang dengan orang yang tak dapat A langsung, itu bukanlah ukuran yang sebenar. Saya berharap, dengan pelajar2 yang dapat banyak A dijulang2, tak akan melahirkan ramai lagi pelajar2 lain yang ingin menjadi lebih hebat dalam pertandingan A terbanyak ini, kerana jumlah jari tangan dan kaki kita, hanyalah 20.

*orang yang tak cukup jumlah jari 20, nak kira pakai apa yerk? tapi kadang2 mereka ni lebih mulia daripada manusia berjari 20 tapi hati dan perangai kalahkan syaitan - diusir dari syurga kerana menjulang diri mereka macam bagus sebab diciptakan daripada api, bukannya tanah macam Adam.

April 20, 2009

Aku sangat marah dan emo dengan lelaki yang bertuankan nafsu serakah

Aku pun sama rasa terseksa bila baca berita ni. Walaupun gadis ni bukan sedara mara aku, mahupun kawan lama, mungkin kawan baru, tapi dia perempuan macam aku.


Gadis dirogol 15 mat rempit


KUANTAN 18 April - Seorang gadis berumur 17 tahun dirogol bergilir-gilir oleh 15 mat rempit dalam satu kejadian di kawasan ladang kelapa sawit Felda Chini, Pekan pada Selasa lalu.

Ketua Polis Daerah Pekan, Supritendan Yahaya Othman berkata, kejadian berlaku selepas mangsa yang tidak bersekolah itu mengikut ajakan salah seorang suspek untuk bersiar-siar.

Beliau berkata, pada mulanya mangsa menemui dua suspek dikenalinya yang datang dengan dua buah motosikal pada pukul 9.15 malam.

"Mangsa kemudian membonceng salah sebuah motosikal dan dibawa ke sebuah ladang kelapa sawit," katanya ketika dihubungi hari ini.

Menurut Yahaya lagi, sebaik tiba di kawasan ladang itu kira-kira pukul 9.30 malam, muncul pula 13 lagi mat rempit daripada kumpulan berkenaan.

"Mangsa kemudian diraba, kaki dan tangannya dipegang lalu dirogol bergilir-gilir di tempat kejadian sehingga menyebabkan kecederaan teruk di bahagian kemaluannya," katanya.

Beliau berkata, selepas dirogol, mangsa telah dihantar pulang ke rumah seorang rakannya.

Katanya, mangsa bersama rakannya itu kemudian telah pergi ke Hospital Pekan untuk menjalani pemeriksaan dan membuat laporan di Ibu Pejabat Polis Daerah Pekan.

Katanya, berikutan laporan oleh mangsa, polis telah menahan 15 remaja lelaki berumur 17 hingga 19 tahun pada Rabu lalu.

Yahaya berkata, mereka telah direman tujuh hari sehingga 21 April ini untuk siasatan lanjut mengikut Seksyen 376 Kanun Keseksaan.


Gila ke ape 15 lelaki (kalau betul dakwaan minah tu ada 15 lelaki)? Punya la jahat mereka ni. Siap panggil geng2 lagi. Walaupun penah tgk adegan mcm ni dalam filem Budak Kelantan (stress jgk tgk citer tu), aku xleh bayangkan klu aku jadi budak pompuan tu.

*tak mustahil klu minah tu trauma seumur hidup

*Alat sulit dia komfem rabak, boleh dpt STD, n paling teruk klu mengandung. Pastu takkan tahu mana satu ayah budak tu daripada 15 penjahat wanita tu, unless buat DNA testing

*Mamat2 rempit tu semua mmg keji. Tapi mungkin ada peluang utk kurang sket hukuman kat akhirat sbb diorang tak bunuh minah tu, klu x, xde sape tahu sape dan brape ramai yang menodai dia

*mesti ramai ibu bapa bimbang terkenangkan anak gadis masing-masing yang diberi kebebasan

*pentingnya perempuan dapat pendidikan yang sebaiknya

dan aku sendiri.. sangat bersyukur Alhamdulillah sbb selama aku berseorangan, tak pernah terjadi hal yang mengerikan ini. Tolonglah berjaga2 wahai perempuan2 lain, dan lelaki2 lain, JANGAN JADI HAMBA NAFSU!!

April 18, 2009

My oh my

I had created a post entitled "Love and pain make u human" some time ago.

Today I've just crossed my quote of the day on the top left of this blog, saying:

"Love until it hurts. Real love is always painful and hurts; then it is real and pure."

- Mother Theresa

My oh my. I guess thats the price you have to pay to buy love.
Money is not helpful here.

Mulakan hari anda dengan breakfast

Hari ni aku brekpes dgn cereal Weetos and Honey Shreddies. Hakikatnya jam telah menunjukkan pukul 2.40pm, dan waktu zuhur dah lame masuk tadi bagi kawasan aku dan yg sama waktu dengannya. biasa la tu, hobi aku shift waktu dunia; dah tido pon waktu siang, malam br nk bwat keje, inikan breakfast yg di-shift ke waktu lunch.

Tadi aku tiba2 terkenangkan cereal2 kt Msia yg aku sniri pon jarang buat brekpes. Selalunya makan bwt kunyah2 suka2 ati la mase bila2 pon kan. Koko Crunch, Honey Star, Corn Flakes, Kellogs Frosties, Trix (my feveret!) dan yg len2 seangkatan dgnnye. Yg len2 tu x igt la sbb x berapa feveret.

Aku rase nnt aku akan terkenangkan cereal2 yg sgt close attachement nye dgn aku kt cni. Weetabix Chocolate (feveret), Weetos, Shreddies, Honey Nut Corn Flakes, Snow Flakes n yg len2 yg x mudah didapati di semua tempat.

In fact, post ni pon aku type sambil menghabiskan cereal aku utk brekpes kali ni...

April 8, 2009

I'm no Cinderella

You are a prince charming
But I'm not a princess. Not even a little one.

And I don't want to be your doll either
So please don't be my puppeteer.

I want to live a real life
Not a fairy-tale dream
Or a desire-based drama.

I don't even wish to be a Cinderella.

Moral of the poem: U gotta left your shoe for the prince to return it to u. Otherwise, how could u be a Cinderella?

April 7, 2009

I am



into pieces

how to overcome these?

am I?

no, I'm immuned.

yes, the world is not over yet.

Welcome to my life.

Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan

April 4, 2009

You’ve reached the LIMIT!

How do you know if you have reached the limit? Normally you only know it when you have passed through it. That means, a distance away from the real limit. (Er..can we stay in the limit?)

What’s the limit of being patient?

What’s the limit of being tolerant?

What’s the limit of having fun?

What’s the limit of freedom?


I don’t think anyone can tell that. Because as long as we haven’t reached the limit, we won’t know where it is. So, we keep going on and on up to a point that we cannot tolerate anymore. A point that we say, “I’ve reached my limit”, with association of some feelings, such as anger, impatient, aggressiveness, destructiveness…or maybe tiredness, relief, awake…

Recalling what I remember in maths, the limit is defined clearly. So, whatever it is, nothing can go across the limit that being set. That’s the case when we can define it, calculate and do anything with it, accompanied by any logical operations possible.

But maths cannot explain everything about limit.

Why do we have limits?

Why sky is the limit?

Why can we have unlimited internet access?

Is our love ever unlimited?

Even though in certain times we can push the limit, but there’s still limit to it.

Why do we ask for something unlimited, when at the same time we have to set the limit?

We know we have to do something when we reach the limit.

Be a man. Do the right thing.

Today I've came across to this Chinese saying, "be a man, do the right thing" ( n make sure u pronounce it in Chinese slang for originality). I think I've heard of it somewhere before this, but I can't remember when and where. It just sounds so familiar and interesting!

I'm not sure what is that right thing to do, maybe any Chinese friends can advise me on that..hehee.. but I like it. I mean, it advises u in your action.

and this video seems to be a hit for this saying. do enjoy as I am ^^

March 21, 2009


When u fall, u stand up.

When u dirty, u clean urself.

When u wrong, u repent.

When u dream too much, u wake up.

When u sick, u recover.

Everything u do, u do it bcoz of Allah. Even samtimes u don't get it. But He hears u.

Coz when u die, that's the last thing u can do. Die.

March 19, 2009

Sayang Lillahi taala

Mu'az bin Jabal meriwayatkan: Rasulullah bersabda (maksudnya): "Suatu kelompok manusia pada hari kiamat kelak akan memperoleh kursi di sekitar Arasy. Wajah mereka bagaikan bulan purnama pada malam lailatul-qadar. Waktu itu manusia panik sedangkan mereka tidak berasa panik dan manusia takut padahal mereka tidak berasa takut. Mereka itu adalah aulia Allah yang tidak pernah takut terhadap mereka (musuh-musuh Allah) dan tidak pernah merasa khuatir".

Lalu Mu'az bertanya: "Siapakah aulia itu, ya Rasulullah?"

Rasulullah menjawab: "Mereka ialah orang-orang yang berkasih sayang antara satu sama lain kerana Allah". (Riwayat Ahmad dan Hakim)

Abu Hurairah pula meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah bersabda, maksudnya: "Allah berfirmaan pada hari kiamat: 'Di mana orang-orang yang menjalin rasa cinta kerana Aku? Hari ini pada saat tidak ada lagi naungan apa pun kecuali naungan-Ku, maka akan Aku naungi mereka di bawah naungan-Ku'".

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March 13, 2009

Janji Manismu

Setelah tensyen mencari bahan untuk esei Forensic taphonomy tapi tak jumpa2, tiba2 mulut ini bernyanyi-nyanyi lagu Aishah. Lagu yg pemes masa zaman kanak2 dahulu. Igt lagi pnah pegi konsert die kat stadium tertutup Kuala Terengganu.

sampai sakit tekak duk karaoke lagu ni. rupanya susah jgk lagu ni. sangat tinggi note die. huhu no wonder aishah pemes btol dulu...

klu bukan sbb lagu ni jugak, smpi skang aku takkan tau rupenye lidah kite ni takde tulang ehh..
tu lah kesian aishah ni. bercinta ngan sweettalker. mmg pandai wat janji2 manis, smpi org len rasa melayang2..

oh paling tak suka org bagi janji palsu. bila dah berjanji ni, biasanya mmg susah nk tunaikan. so pls la jgn janji sembarangan k?

March 9, 2009

Baginda S.A.W.

Hari ni 9 mac, bersamaan 12 Rabi'ul Awal. Maulidur rasul. Tapi takde perarakan pulak hari ni. Takpe, kita ajelah yang berselawat kat sini yer. Salamun'alaik, ya Rasul Allah yang dirindui.

Lelaki yang berbudi pekerti, tutur kata penuh mulia dan hemah.
Suami yang penyayang dan sweet
Bapa yang pengasih
Ketua yang tiada tolok bandingnya

Manusia paling agung

March 4, 2009

Spring is coming!!

Spring is coming and I feel sooooo happy and excited!! :) :) :)

"An optimist is the human personification of spring"

I wish to bloom gracefully like the flowers, in so many colours
I wish to shine brightly like the sun, rays of light that lighten up gloomy Britain

Every time I walk outdoor in spring
I can feel the flowery breeze
I can breathe in fresh and alive air
I can feel my spirit is jumping all over

And, the best thing is to share this happy feeling with everyone else that have been longing for spring..

I ♥ spring

Bye2 winter

February 28, 2009

Let go of negativity

Learn to let go when something goes wrong. Wishing things were different is a waste of emotional energy. Going over the same situation in your head again and again means you are fighting the reality of what actually happened. And this type of circular thinking can prevent you from becoming more +ve!!

February 6, 2009

We dirrty

We humans are just dirty. Dirty like mud, sand, soil. Coz that's what we made of. We not made of white innocent snow, or blue cool water, or hot flaming fire. Coz we are human.
Sinful. We are all sinners.

That's why we pray. We istighfar. To clean ourselves. Again and again. To purify ourselves.

And then get dirty again.

And then we clean and purify again.

Until we no longer do that, when we 'there'.

February 2, 2009

Kalau aku jadi salji

Kalau aku salji
Kecik je aku
Lagi kecik dari salji yg org bwat pakai polistrin
Kadang2 besar jgk
Macam kepingan corn flakes
Jatuh dari langit
Tapi banyak sangat
Pastu ramai orang rasa happy
Tengok aku turun dari langit, tak henti2

Bila aku turun makin lebat
Orang2 susah nak jalan sebab aku sampai masuk dalam mata dorang
Tapi macam orang yang kumpul ramai2 tu
Nampak happy sangat
Gumpal2 aku pastu baling kat member2 dorang
Ada yang gumpal besar giler
Pastu dorang bwat maskot aku, Snowman
Tak tahula kenapa takde pulak Snowwoman
Ada yang buat rama2 bila dorang baring kat snowbed

Pastu semua tempat jadi putih
Nampak suci sangat, cantik
Orang pun sibuk ambil gambar

Bestnye kalau aku jadi salji
Semua orang bergembira bila aku turun..

Tapi kalau aku turun lama sangat
Ada jugak orang susah hati
Susah nak jalan, susah nak bawak kereta
Kadang2 sampai sekolah cuti
Ada yang tak dapat pergi kerja
Ada yang kena frostbite, sakit sebab sejuk membeku
Dan macam2 lagi la

Aduhh kesian pulak kat dorang
Terus rasa tak suka kenapa aku turun
Nak buat macam mana
Bila sampai masa, aku akan turun jugak..

Memutihkan muka bumi dan meresapkan kedinginan kepada makhluk2 bumi

Snow across the UK as on BBC 2/2/2009

January 22, 2009

Ayat-ayat Cinta

سُوۡرَةُ الفَاتِحَة
بِسۡمِ ٱللهِ ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ (١)
ٱلۡحَمۡدُ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ ٱلۡعَـٰلَمِينَ (٢) ٱلرَّحۡمَـٰنِ ٱلرَّحِيمِ (٣) مَـٰلِكِ يَوۡمِ ٱلدِّينِ (٤) إِيَّاكَ نَعۡبُدُ وَإِيَّاكَ نَسۡتَعِينُ (٥) ٱهۡدِنَا ٱلصِّرَٲطَ ٱلۡمُسۡتَقِيمَ (٦) صِرَٲطَ ٱلَّذِينَ أَنۡعَمۡتَ عَلَيۡهِمۡ غَيۡرِ ٱلۡمَغۡضُوبِ عَلَيۡهِمۡ وَلَا ٱلضَّآلِّينَ (٧

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful (1)
Praise be to Allah, Lord of the Worlds, (2) The Beneficent, the Merciful. (3) Owner of the Day of Judgment, (4) Thee (alone) we worship; Thee (alone) we ask for help. (5) Show us the straight path, (6) The path of those whom Thou hast favoured. Not (the path) of those who earn Thine anger nor of those who go astray. (7)