October 26, 2008

A reflection 4 a while

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How lonely are you?

Just finished watching Sepi. I didn't get the chance to watch it back in Msia, so there it youtube.

My first thought was this must be a normal, touching movie. Since it's a continuation from Cinta (there are all 3, so the 3rd will be coming soon), I bet it wouldn't be more than typical Malay movie. Coz it seems like most people like Cinta, but after I watched it, I juz felt normal, nothing extraordinary. It's juz that I must give compliment to the cinematography. I dunno if Im using the correct term, but I mean the way camera shot every angle of acting. Great n impressive, the same goes to Sepi.

Sepi, not as lonely as it sounds, coz it fulls of great background musics, comforting you with every heartbeat. About 3 people, Adam (Afdlin), Sufi (Tony) and Imaan (Baizura).

Afdlin, lonely bcoz he hasnt met her soulmate. Sick of attending wedding ceremonies n being seated at 'the singles', table for single people. When he met Ilyana and getting close to her, it was too late, since Ilyana was actually ready for her wedding day. Then she cancelled it, bcoz she wanted Adam... poor ex-boyfren of Ilyana, had his wedding to be cancelled by a wedding planner-girlfriend.

Sufi accidentally hit Imaan when was driving his car with wife. n got his wife crashed by a big vehicle (truck, Storm-like) and dead, after he went out of car to look for Imaan's condition. He felt so lonely n guilty, that he had to run (as for jogging) until he started to know Marya, n learned that Marya was also lonely, longing for a child. Eventually she got pregnant, n Tony ended up waiting for her until his death.

Imaan... I guess she's kinda psycothic, since she coped with her shock of losing her bf, by having her bf still alive. Being chased by Ean, Imaan was comma for quite a time, n finally letting his Pierre bf go and rest-in-piece. ops peace.. So Imaan finally recovered her loneliness, by having Ean by her side..

Well, much better than Cinta, I would say, personally. Cinta is quite typical to me, n Sepi much better coz it knows how to touch ur heart, n mine as well, that it made my eyes wet 4 a while.

We do feel lonely. Longing. For somebody. So that we know how to appreciate the people around us. That sometimes we dunno that they chase away our loneliness. Even with a smile...


Aku lari ke hutan, kemudian menyanyiku
Aku lari ke pantai, kemudian teriakku
Sepi… Sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Aku ingin bingar. Aku mau di pasar

Bosan aku dengan penat,
dan enyah saja kau, pekat!

Seperti berjelaga jika aku sendiri
Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh

Ahh.. ada malaikat menyulam jaring laba-laba belang
di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya?
Biar terderah,
atau… aku harus lari ke hutan belok ke pantai?

Puisi Tentang Seseorang - Melayu-Dian Sastro

October 17, 2008

raya! raya! raya!

I’m done with raya now. Eventually, this raya is not that bad at all. I was in gloom during Ramadhan, looking forward for my warm Eid celebration, each year overseas. Even though there are always people around you to celebrate eid, it will never be the same, celebrating raya with ur family, to get to kiss ur parents’ hand, to visit ur relatives’ houses, to try all range of biskut raya at people’s cribs, and... I better stop talking bout it, otherwise the sense of missing home will grow wilder n uncontrollable.

After all, true meaning of having Eid is to celebrate our success of fasting for whole Ramadhan.

“Saban tahun apabila berlalunya Ramadan, kita akan meraikan Aidilfitri. Kita raikan ia dengan Takbir, Tasbih dan Tahmid. Tetapi pernahkah kita dikunjungi tanda tanya, apakah sebenarnya yang kita raikan?

Sesungguhnya, yang kita raikan adalah hakikat diri kita sebagai seorang Muslim. Kita raikan anugerah terbesar pemberian Allah ini. Islam yang telah memuliakan kita, meletakkan harga diri kita yang tinggi dan Islam yang memelihara martabat kemanusiaan kita. Islam itu adalah Islam yang telah disempurnakan oleh Allah, Islam yang menjadi penyempurna nikmat Allah kepada kita dan Islam yang telah diredhaiNya sebagai jalan hidup. Pujilah Allah di atas nikmat ini.

“Segala puji bagi Allah yang telah memberi petunjuk kepada kami ke arah ini, yang tidaklah kami ini beroleh panduan hidayat jika tidak diberi petunjuk oleh Allah” (Al-A’raaf: 43)” – quoted from

Absence makes heart grow fonder. Hmm... I wonder how fond my family now of waiting 4 me to be there with them, to celebrate Eid together. Hahaaa... but the missing of having celebrating Eid with them, has left Eid happiness in my heart to empty. Which will be filled and redeemed some other time. Well, having celebrating Eid each year without variation will permit boredom to accompany u, yeah?


1st day Eid – Eid prayer at nearer mosque in Bradford, then headed to class as usual. Beraya to kak Ee’s crib

2nd day – open houses in Bradford

4th day – Eid in Dublin, Alisa’ new crib

5th day – Eid celebration at Malaysia Hall in Dublin. At nite, Eid party in RCSI


6th day – Back to Bradford, another Eid celebration with all Malaysians of Bradford resident.

Will be to other open houses, if any ;) bet this my final year to celebrate Eid in Bradford. Hmm...