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August 24, 2010

Dysmenorrhea

It means pain discomfort during menstrual. Or popularly, period pain. Most women experience this during their menses days, every month, though some don’t, fortunately. And the experiences vary from one woman to another. Some say the pain will get lessen after they get married. I don’t know how valid this is.

The pain varies. My own experience? Let me reveal this in Malay. Sakit perut yang bukan macam biasa, sakit pinggang yang amat sangat seolah-olah patah pinggang dan sakit di bahagian dalaman yang berpunca akibat servix cramp. All these symptoms are so painful that I can’t even sleep just because I want to get over the overwhelming pain. Instead, I have to consume painkiller and wait for it to take effect. During the waiting, I will be so ‘half-life’ enduring the pain, tossing in my bed with various positions to calm down. After struggling for some time, I would normally get carried away into sleep and wake up feeling no pain anymore. Alhamdulillah~

Sometimes, it turns out to be good to me, either I feel mild pain, or I take the painkiller in advance, so that when the pain sets in, I’m already desensitized to feel the pain. Recently, I experience dysmenorrhea for 3 consecutive days, don’t know if this a bad sign (normally 2 consecutive days).

Some tips to control this:
1. Eat a lot of carbohydrates such as rice and bread
2. Avoid caffeine at any cost, coz it will make the pain worse
3. Avoid chocolate (but I don’t always obey this)
4. Avoid cold temperature / cold room / cold drink
5. Get extra heat from hot water in container or hot towel and press it to the pain area
6. Painkiller, the most effective one to kill the pain. Actually it is not that good for health. But if the pain is so unbearable, or I can’t be power-less to get my things done because of the pain, then this is my only solution.

And some women experience mood swing during menstrual? Maybe due to the pain that is affecting the mood? That they turn out to be grumpy or sensitive? I don’t know much coz I don’t experience this. I always try to control my mood though I’m in pain, usually by avoiding meeting people. Well, I do have PMS, but not by being moody, just being a bit weird..

However, as a Muslim, I have faith in Allah. And Allah says, setiap penyakit itu pengubat dosa.. (illness is a cure to our sin). And I accept this monthly test dengan redha, at least every month Allah has given me the chance to cure my sins, not only by remembering Him, but by fearing the torment of the hellfire as well, which pain is more unbearable and unspeakable by words. Naudzubillahi min dzalik.

August 2, 2010

Kalau aku mati muda

Hari-hari dengar cerita orang mati dalam berita.
Ada yang mati ngeri. Ada yang mati sakit. Ada yang mati kemalangan. Aku mohon perlindungan Allah sangat2, tanak mati kat jalanraya (Macam aku boleh pilih nak mati kat mana?)

Dalam hari-hari dengar berita kematian ni, sangat jarang-jarang ada kena-mengena dengan diriku. Selalu ku terfikir, macam mana keadaan keluarga mereka ya? Meratapkah mereka ahli keluarga mereka mati digilis di jalan raya? Berdendamkah mereka orang kesayangan mereka mati dibunuh? Padahal, sekiranya sesuatu terjadi di kalangan ahli keluargaku sendiri, pasti aku rawan. Tak keruan. Dan tak tahu lagi apa seterusnya. Itu baru orang lain.

Kalau aku sendiri dah sampai masa, bagaimana agaknya keadaan aku ketika itu? Sedang tidur? Sedang berseronok? Sedang bosan, tak tahu nak gunakan masa dengan perkara bermanfaat? Atau sedang berjuang, di jalan Allah hendaknya? Maka aku tinggalkan orang-orang di dunia ni dengan hutang-hutang aku, lambakan barang-barang aku, dan juga sampah-sampah aku yang lain. Entah masih adakah kebaikan yang akan aku tinggalkan pada mereka. Rukun Islam ke-5 masih belum terlaksana. Sebahagian dariapada agamaku masih belum lengkap kerana belum mendirikan masjid. Tiada anak soleh untuk mendoakan aku. Amal jariah pun tak tahula cukup ke tak nak bantu aku dalam kubur. Itu baru kubur. Belum titian sirat, padang mahsyar. Mungkinkah nanti aku akan merayu pada Tuhan agar dikembalikan ke dunia, untuk aku beribadat barang satu dua, untuk memberatkan timbangan aku agar dimudahkan hisab ke Syurga, bukannya dibaham api neraka yang terlalu ngeri dan kejam itu.

Ya, aku selalu terfikir tentang kematianku.

Kerana aku pasti akan mati.

Dan aku pasti aku belum bersedia.