July 26, 2009

60 things most girls dont know

Some things to share, copied this from somewhere else, probably confessed by some guy(s?). Since they seem to be really practical (in a way), I pasted them here..

1.Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6're a HOE)

2."Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3.Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4.Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5.Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6.Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7.Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8.A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9.Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10.Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11.Guys get jealous easily.

12.Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13.Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14.Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15.Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16.Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17.Guys are very open about themselves.

18.It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19.Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20.If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21.A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22.Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23.Guys will brag about anything.

24.Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

25.No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

26.Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

27.Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

28.Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

29.Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then they're all confused.

30.Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

31.Try to be as straightforward as possible.

32.If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

33.If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

34.When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

35.Guys don't really have final decisions.

36.If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

37.If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

38.When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

39.When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

40.Guys like femininity not feebleness.

41.Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

42.A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

43.Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

44.Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

45.Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

46.Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

47.If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

48.Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49.A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50.No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

51.Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

52.We don't like girls who are too skinny.

53.Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

54.Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

55.When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

56.Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

57.Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

58.Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

59.When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

60.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
(I honestly believe no.60 is not practical)

What I'll be missing: I

Things change. I've changed to a more mature and tougher person. Well, life gets tougher, so do I eh? And now, it is the time for big changes in my life. My journey in UK will be terminated not long from now, after I first landed here in September 2006. So, many things will end here for me.. And these ends mean big changes for me; I will no longer have them. And I know I will miss them. And as usual, we have to adapt to changes. And I'm recording them here so that I won't forget them in my busy future.

*First thing I want to record here, is what I am currently losing. I am currently losing my dear friends in UK - my fightingmates (teman seperjuangan). I'm losing them to Malaysia, they are leaving UK as their business here have finished, well some of them already in Msia. Well, even though I can still contact them, it feels so different now since they are not here in UK. In a way, I feel so alone here, since I'm still taking my time to go back home. The change is that, they are no longer here. I feel like I'm without my comrades to finish my last battle here.

-No more hanging out in UK with my girls
-No more long calls on the phone using our free minutes
-No more long chat in ym, buzzing, gossiping, pasting links and sharing photos

Holland, Spring 2008

I guess I'm just making it sound worst. The fact is, I still have other friends here, and Malaysian families that are so caring about me.

July 21, 2009


Dia pun rase apa yang aku rasa...
Dia pun fikir apa yang aku dah fikir...


July 14, 2009

Need and desire

I hate wanting so much.
I hate wanting so much that I can't even get what I really want.
Whenever I can't get what I really want, I end up frustrated.
Frustrated all by myself.

I've tried to not wanting so much.
But I can't help, of having so much desire for myself,
and wanting so much to fulfill my need.

Until, I reach to a point, where I feel like I should stop from asking so many things in my life.
But it leaves me with worries of being a human without hope, since I'm not wanting anything.

It's 1:04 am now, and I can't stop being sad thinking about this since my attempt trying to get in bed. I'm thinking too much, but I can't help it.

Maybe I'm asking too much, that I forget, that I've been given with so many gifts that I forget to be thankful. I've been so blessed that I don't realise that I don't have much needs anymore, and should not be desiring this and that.

July 5, 2009

Ada apa dengan nombor?

Lamanye aku x blog..hmmm


04. Nombor yang aku letak kat email aku. Aku ni mmg tak minat ngan nombor2 ni sbenanye. Tapi, nombor 04 selalu menghantui aku kt digital number display yg aku tgk; jam kt mobile phone aku (ni plg byk), pastu mane2 display yg ade tulis nombor, mcm pukul 3:04, 12:04, etc.. Disebabkan rase saspen dihantui nombor2 yang same ni, maka aku pon letak la nombor ni kat email yg aku pakai..maka lepas tu kurang la sket aku ternampak nombor 04 ni kt mane2..yela sbb dah biasa kan tgk kt email sniri.

No.4 ni xde mende pon utk aku, except that aku ni anak ke-4. Tu je. So aku ade favour jgk nombor ni kadang2, atas sbb tu je..

Cume, lately, ade satu lagi nombor yang telah menghantui aku.. Maka aku pon tak senang duduk jugak la..Yang ni ade gabungan 3 nombor, xxx. Yang ni over sket, sbb nombor 04 tu slalunye aku nampak kt jam digital je, tapi xxx ni aku nampak kt mane2. Creepy. Sampaikan nombor tu jadi terbalik pon aku ade ternampak jugak..Arghhh..yang aku ingat, aku penah nampak xxx ni kat image size mase aku blogging, pastu no. servis ape tah ari tu, pastu ari tu aku bangun nampak nombor ni kat jam tepon aku, n ape tah lagi..Arghhh...yang pasti, aku mmg dari awal2 lagi nampak nombor ni kt ym aku.. sbb ade kt ID sorang mamat ni, n aku mmg slalu gak chatting ngan die (sbb tu nombor ni dirahsiakan..). It's juz that, why now? Ada makna ke??

Tentang seseorang ni, nombor xxx die tu mmg ade nombor 4 jugak. Suratan atau kebetulan, ntah ler. Apa yang dapat aku relate, kitorang dah almost 4 tahun x jumpa each other, sbb jauh. Ada ym je yg boleh kontek. So far, aku anggap die as teman tapi mesra - TTM. Takde la slalu chatting pon, tapi slalu la tegur2 ble ade mase. Kadang2 aku ingat dia x kesah pon kt aku, but sometimes he shows that he cares. But aku rase die mmg caring ngan kengkawan die pon. Cume, mungkin die kurang caring pasal die sniri. Tu part yang aku kureng sket.

What I mean is, die mmg pandai nasihat aku n kengkawan yg len2. Tp ade la mende2 pasal die yg aku rase die kene ubah in caring for himself, for a better him. Mungkin sbb die rase life die skang dah ok, so why bother anything else. Despite of that, 1 thing yang aku sangat aware, aku x pnah rase sakit ati ngan die (so far la). Klu mcm ada tersalah, die mmg dh sorry awal2 (padahal xde mende pon). Aku takkan lupa ni. Sbb die ni tah ape2 jgak orangnye. Otai la jugak. Bila fikir balik, laki2 lain yang berlagak macam bagus, macam baik, ade je yang sakitkan hati orang lain, or don't even bother about others.

Skarang, it looks like it's gonna end somewhere. I don't know where, but since aku akan balik msia x lame lg, n kurang dah mase dpt ym, maka kurang atau x dpt langsung dah la kot nk chatting ngan si dia ni. Plus, lately die mcm dh pelik sket ngan aku. Like, panggil aku ngan nama, pastu chatting ngan aku pasal mende2 yg agak personal (dulu aku yg slalu tanye sbb nk korek samthing ngan die), n, die pnah ckap pasal things yg bunyi lain macam. Xde mende pon, cume as TTM, ptt tak timbul mende tu. Klu gurau2 tu mmg ade la. I like it we are being that way. Nothing personal. Sbb susah kan laki ngan pompuan klu konon2 nk jadi membe rapat je.

Tapi takpelah. Sebelum aku mtak lebih2 dari dia, and die x dpt bagi, aku rase aku nak mengundur diri. Everything has an end kan.. But there are things I won't forget about him:
- die pnah ckap aku pompuan plg tabah die pnah jumpe (dunno if he really meant that)
- die tak pnah bwat aku sakit hati or bengang
- die slalu bwat aku terhibur, tersenyum sendiri, and made me felt OK when things not OK for me
- die x pnah chat tergantung, if he wants to leave, he leaves with manner..
- die slalu ckp pasal mende2 yg boleh motivate aku
- aku x jadikan die tempat mengadu, tp die selalu buat aku bercerita

I better leave it there, before I get more emotional. Post aku dulu - Dari hati turun ke gitar - lagu tu mmg aku tujukan kt die pon (wpon die mmg x tahu). Hopefully lepas ni nombor keramat die tu (xxx) takkan menghantui aku lg, since aku dh express kt sini..walaupun tak visible.

*terasa macam Opie yg bercerita dlm blog die (Dunia Baru season 1)

p/s: I just realised this post is dated as 4 July.. another number 4..huhuuuu. sebbaik bukan nombor xxx tu